This morning I freaked out over a spider.. like proper freaked, I screamed like a girl, threw something at it and ran away as fast as I could.
This is the first time since my trauma! The first time I have had a normal fear response to something unrelated! I stopped being afraid of anything for a while. What was happening in my mind and what had happened to me was far too scary for my silly little irrational fears to have any space!
Although my arachnophobia isn’t nice and I hate having it, it’s so good to see a part of myself that I recognise! A bizzare victory… but a huge victory 😀