There I am!

This morning I freaked out over a spider.. like proper freaked, I screamed like a girl, threw something at it and ran away as fast as I could.

This is the first time since my trauma! The first time I have had a normal fear response to something unrelated! I stopped being afraid of anything for a while. What was happening in my mind and what had happened to me was far too scary for my silly little irrational fears to have any space!

Although my arachnophobia isn’t nice and I hate having it, it’s so good to see a part of myself that I recognise! A bizzare victory… but a huge victory 😀

Published by DelilahSpuddy

Well when I first started this blog, I was just using it as an anonymous way to vent. I suffered a horrific year in 2018 starting with witnessing abuse in my work place and ending in an awful assault on me by a so called friend. Now as I start to recover I’m hoping to reach those who unfortunately may find themselves in my situation with nobody to turn to. I managed my PTSD symptoms a good 8 months before I was told I wasn’t going mad and actually there was a name for it. In those 8 months I came up with all sorts of weird and wonderful ways to ground and help myself. Some of the writing in my blog isn’t nice and contains some triggers so please be aware. It’s just what I need to do at the moment. But if you want to... feel free to have a look ❤️ welcome to the madhouse 😂

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