A session full of firsts.

Last nights EMDR was full of firsts for me!

The first time I wasn’t sick before/during the session. (I was afterwards but I suspect that was from eating too much).

The first time I managed to verbalise stuff, usually I shake my head when he asks if I can tell him stuff, last night I just came out with it.

My first fully processed memory! This one is a BIG DEAL!! My body no longer reacts to the scariest image in my mind. 😃 At the start f my EMDR this image was an 8/9 on a scale of distress, last night it was a 3 😊

I managed to identify in the session the very first time I ever felt anxiety, helplessness and where the feelings of being a bad person come from.

I also managed to sleep afterwards and have normal dreams! I only had around 2 hours before waking up but not because of nightmares but just because my brain is busy. I managed to sleep with the duvet on, usually I have to have a really light one or just a thin blanket which can be a pain this time of the year. 😃😃😃