So I find myself in a familiar place. A lonely place, but it’s not as scary here as it was last time, last time I may as well of been on a sinking inflatable raft in the Humber estuary, I couldn’t see anywhere but down. I had absolutely no support to hold on to, I …
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Simple concept.
Yesterday my therapist said the simplest of sentences to me and for the first time I actually heard her! It completely stunned me. Such a simple concept and I’m not sure why I heard her so clearly yesterday? Usually I just sit there and I either just say ok or I argue with her. Yesterday …
Sulky Hippocampus
Yesterday was such a good day! I didn’t have one single flashback, I can’t remember the last time that happened. I had few auras but none of them actually took over.. 🥰 I cannot describe how amazing that felt! Also yesterday I started off the day 5 assignments behind at college, I put my head …
Personal Justice.
Last night I went through my phone and deleted all of the phone numbers/text messages connected to my case. I had a little cry, mainly out of frustration and a little because I had to let to go of my ISVA who became my rock these past 13 months. Mainly though because I was so …
New beginnings and finally some new dreams!!
This morning I had the strangest dreams, dreams about arguing with someone over chips, dreams about my friends, of course they weren’t doing anything normal in my dreams but they never do in real life 🤣 but it was so nice to have normal dreams well my kind of normal… maybe doing supermarket sweep whilst …
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Goats and spiders…
There once was a goat she lived on a lovely green field in a farm of very close knit animals, she was a happy little goat, she was content, she enjoyed helping other goats, she was very busy but she was also very dependable … she just took everything in her stride, she had a …
Manic or just me?
So yesterday I reluctantly started a course of anti psychotics a very low dose.. I was told it would calm my anxiety and flashbacks.. this morning I had my second pill.. at first it made me very sleepy and dizzy but as those feelings started to wear off I became aware that I felt alright.. …
Dennis (summer 2019)
On Monday I was having a good day… it was influenced by diazepam but so be it.. I went for a lovely walk along the cliffs of Scarborough, I came across a bench dedicated to a man called Dennis.. who loved walking these cliffs with his wife… I sat on his bench and immersed myself …
The tree 🌲 (August 2019)
So today… I indulged in a favourite childhood hobby of mine.. I climbed a tree! A bloody big one at that.. I don’t know where the urge came from I was moping through the cemetery envying the dead.. I needed to escape and I came across the most beautiful tree I just needed to be, …
Delilah (April 2019)
My counsellor suggested imagining my little blossom tree growing inside of me and shooting her roots down through my feet and holding me firmly to the ground… last night when rehearsals weren’t going very well… I took her advice on board… I closed my eyes and breathed deeply, imagining my tree blossoming deep within my …
Delilah Blossom 