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Blossom in a dark dark world.

Today I’m meant to be writing a letter to life… but I am feeling far too overwhelmed and anxious to tackle that today. Maybe tomorrow. For today…. I wanted to share a picture my sister sent me. A picture of my tree. A tree that this blog is named after ❤️ My sister sending me …

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A letter to me…

Well this is going to be hard, I have a constant battle going on in my head so to talk to my present self is actually rather scary, I never know which me is going to come to the forefront! I am very much teetering on an edge too 😬 however I’ll try and give …

A letter to 50 year old me

Well hi there! As I write to you the prime minister has just put the country on lockdown because of a virus! A virus that you have… you aren’t very well but you aren’t too bad. Do you remember? I bet you never take a walk in the fresh air for granted again once this …

Things to be proud of!

First off these bad boys!!! haven’t had the desire or confidence to attempt Yorkshire puddings for ages!! My grandma would be proud!! ❤️ Secondly I’m realising and accepting how far I have actually started to come. Thirdly.. I have a real desire to go back to work. I want to help people again especially now! …

Victories of the past week!

Decided to start keeping a positivity diary! I feel I focus too much on the negative, plus now I’m on my own again in terms of help.. I need to start pulling myself through so… This week I fought off my anxiety, attended my university interview and got offered a place the very same day. …

Invisible illness.

Seriously frustrated today. Because I function so well and for the most part I cope with my symptoms on my own, people seem to think I’m not ill. I had a mental health nurse this afternoon say to me “you are coping with a nursing course, and you haven’t hurt yourself for a few weeks …

Adrift but not drowning.

So I find myself in a familiar place. A lonely place, but it’s not as scary here as it was last time, last time I may as well of been on a sinking inflatable raft in the Humber estuary, I couldn’t see anywhere but down. I had absolutely no support to hold on to, I …

Simple concept.

Yesterday my therapist said the simplest of sentences to me and for the first time I actually heard her! It completely stunned me. Such a simple concept and I’m not sure why I heard her so clearly yesterday? Usually I just sit there and I either just say ok or I argue with her. Yesterday …

Sulky Hippocampus

Yesterday was such a good day! I didn’t have one single flashback, I can’t remember the last time that happened. I had few auras but none of them actually took over.. 🥰 I cannot describe how amazing that felt! Also yesterday I started off the day 5 assignments behind at college, I put my head …

Personal Justice.

Last night I went through my phone and deleted all of the phone numbers/text messages connected to my case. I had a little cry, mainly out of frustration and a little because I had to let to go of my ISVA who became my rock these past 13 months. Mainly though because I was so …