This morning I freaked out over a spider.. like proper freaked, I screamed like a girl, threw something at it and ran away as fast as I could. This is the first time since my trauma! The first time I have had a normal fear response to something unrelated! I stopped being afraid of anything …
Tag Archives: PTSD
Picking fights.
Awake at this ungodly hour unpacking my brain and sorting through the rubble. After some soul searching with my girlfriend and a conversation with my therapist I am trying in the kindest, gentlest way I can muster to give my self a stern talking to. The past few days have been turbulent to say the …
Healing Tears.
Last night I was trying to keep my head busy before sleep, I’d had an emotional day and I didn’t want a night full of nightmares… I was chatting casually to my girlfriend about previous relationships and soulmates etc etc, as we were chatting I started to become aware that I was getting a little …
This weeks proud moments.
1. I went back to work and managed 3 shifts! I had a hard time on one shift but I was able to medicate and ground myself. I managed the rest of the shift largely ok. 2. We moved!! The house is amazing. So quiet, beautiful and peaceful. Almost managed two whole days without flashbacks. …
A letter to time.
I’m a little behind on the letters! But still writing when I can! https://bloggingexposure.wordpress.com/2020/03/22/lets-write-letters/ Mar 22 (Sunday)– to your younger self (you can go back to any time you like) Mar 23 (Monday)- to your older self (you to jump to any time you wish to) Mar 24 (Tuesday)- to your present self March 25 …
A letter to life…
Bit late and mostly ranty but 🤷♀️ https://bloggingexposure.wordpress.com/2020/03/22/lets-write-letters/ Right life, you absolute son of a nutcracker! what is this?! Seriously?! Give a girl a break!! I would like to know exactly what the hell the past two years have been about,and why you thought it was appropriate to deal me that hand?? not even just …
Blossom in a dark dark world.
Today I’m meant to be writing a letter to life… but I am feeling far too overwhelmed and anxious to tackle that today. Maybe tomorrow. For today…. I wanted to share a picture my sister sent me. A picture of my tree. A tree that this blog is named after ❤️ My sister sending me …
A letter to me…
Well this is going to be hard, I have a constant battle going on in my head so to talk to my present self is actually rather scary, I never know which me is going to come to the forefront! I am very much teetering on an edge too 😬 however I’ll try and give …
A letter to 50 year old me
Well hi there! As I write to you the prime minister has just put the country on lockdown because of a virus! A virus that you have… you aren’t very well but you aren’t too bad. Do you remember? I bet you never take a walk in the fresh air for granted again once this …
Things to be proud of!
First off these bad boys!!! haven’t had the desire or confidence to attempt Yorkshire puddings for ages!! My grandma would be proud!! ❤️ Secondly I’m realising and accepting how far I have actually started to come. Thirdly.. I have a real desire to go back to work. I want to help people again especially now! …
Delilah Blossom 