Remission

I haven’t managed to write anything in such a long time! I’ve been too busy getting better and I’m happy to say I think my PTSD has crawled off into remission 😃😃 My EMDR has worked absolute miracles! When I first started it I would spend the whole day anxious as hell about it, I …

Stiff upper lip or self sabotage?

Growing up British and in a household with two seriously ill brothers I was taught the stiff upper lip, it’s not that bad approach from a very early age. I learnt to suppress emotions and feelings very well and I grew up believing that I was quite a robust tough woman, if I ever felt …

Fresh hell.

It is currently 2.50 am and I have just fought my way out of my fourth NEW nightmare of the night!! I was warned things could get worse during the process of EMDR and last nights session was brutal but I felt I made huge progress… Fast forward to bedtime, I was exhausted after my …

Biting the bullet.

The past few days I have found myself toying with the idea of giving EMDR another go. My therapist mentioned it, to help me get the bottom of why I keep skipping time. Straight away I said no, however after a chat with my girlfriend about it… I am mulling it over. I had an …

Letter to an old friend. (Trigger warning)

https://bloggingexposure.wordpress.com/2020/03/22/lets-write-letters/ Mar 22 (Sunday)– to your younger self (you can go back to any time you like)Mar 23 (Monday)- to your older self (you to jump to any time you wish to)Mar 24 (Tuesday)- to your present selfMarch 25 (Wednesday)- to LifeMar 26 (Thursday)- to TimeMar 27 (Friday)- to your Dream/DestinationMar 28 (Saturday)- to someone …

Simple concept.

Yesterday my therapist said the simplest of sentences to me and for the first time I actually heard her! It completely stunned me. Such a simple concept and I’m not sure why I heard her so clearly yesterday? Usually I just sit there and I either just say ok or I argue with her. Yesterday …

Personal Justice.

Last night I went through my phone and deleted all of the phone numbers/text messages connected to my case. I had a little cry, mainly out of frustration and a little because I had to let to go of my ISVA who became my rock these past 13 months. Mainly though because I was so …

The Circus (written March 2019)

So this is my first blog post ever.. a member on a Depression Forum suggested it to me, I used to keep diaries as a child and nothing else seems to work so I’ll give this a try. So here we go, an insight into the circus that is my mind right now, at this …

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