Depression, PTSD, anxiety, assault, finding myself
Here in the U.K., care jobs are aplenty, homecare, residential care, specialist care etc etc.. it’s not hard to get a care job and a lot of people unfortunately get one because it’s easy to get in. the money isn’t great and the hours are long so if you aren’t the sort of person who …
Continue reading “Can you work in care if you actually care?”
I have started to feel better recently, my flashbacks are down to one or two every 2 or 3 days, my nightmares are ever present but the past few nights they have been sort of gentle on me, I am generally able to wake up, calm down and go right back off to sleep instead …
https://bloggingexposure.wordpress.com/2020/03/22/lets-write-letters/ Mar 22 (Sunday)– to your younger self (you can go back to any time you like)Mar 23 (Monday)- to your older self (you to jump to any time you wish to)Mar 24 (Tuesday)- to your present selfMarch 25 (Wednesday)- to LifeMar 26 (Thursday)- to TimeMar 27 (Friday)- to your Dream/DestinationMar 28 (Saturday)- to someone …
Continue reading “Letter to an old friend. (Trigger warning)”
Decided to start keeping a positivity diary! I feel I focus too much on the negative, plus now I’m on my own again in terms of help.. I need to start pulling myself through so… This week I fought off my anxiety, attended my university interview and got offered a place the very same day. …
Seriously frustrated today. Because I function so well and for the most part I cope with my symptoms on my own, people seem to think I’m not ill. I had a mental health nurse this afternoon say to me “you are coping with a nursing course, and you haven’t hurt yourself for a few weeks …
So I find myself in a familiar place. A lonely place, but it’s not as scary here as it was last time, last time I may as well of been on a sinking inflatable raft in the Humber estuary, I couldn’t see anywhere but down. I had absolutely no support to hold on to, I …
Yesterday my therapist said the simplest of sentences to me and for the first time I actually heard her! It completely stunned me. Such a simple concept and I’m not sure why I heard her so clearly yesterday? Usually I just sit there and I either just say ok or I argue with her. Yesterday …
Last night I went through my phone and deleted all of the phone numbers/text messages connected to my case. I had a little cry, mainly out of frustration and a little because I had to let to go of my ISVA who became my rock these past 13 months. Mainly though because I was so …
So today… I indulged in a favourite childhood hobby of mine.. I climbed a tree! A bloody big one at that.. I don’t know where the urge came from I was moping through the cemetery envying the dead.. I needed to escape and I came across the most beautiful tree I just needed to be, …
So this is my first blog post ever.. a member on a Depression Forum suggested it to me, I used to keep diaries as a child and nothing else seems to work so I’ll give this a try. So here we go, an insight into the circus that is my mind right now, at this …
Delilah Blossom 