Depression is…

Having a heavy feeling inside your head, like a seriously muggy day devoid of fresh air or any sort of breeze. Being so desperately sad but unable to utter a single syllable or cry. Having that heavy muggy feeling spread through your body, into your forehead making it throb, into your ears making them ring …

Crazy cat lady!

I caught myself this morning in the middle of a proper laughing fit, I couldn’t stop laughing and everytime I almost calmed down, all I had to do was look at my cat and I went off into fits of giggles again…the reason for that laughter? A made up scenario in my head which I …

Biting the bullet.

The past few days I have found myself toying with the idea of giving EMDR another go. My therapist mentioned it, to help me get the bottom of why I keep skipping time. Straight away I said no, however after a chat with my girlfriend about it… I am mulling it over. I had an …

Rollercoaster 🎢

This week has been what has become a typical week in my life in recent times, which basically means it’s a huge messy rollercoaster with so many steep ups and downs it’s untrue. At the moment I’m riding a high, instead of enjoying the high.. my brain is looking for the next low. It’s not …

A letter to Poppy.

Today’s letter is supposed to be to someone close, I decided to write to my mums dog. She literally has been my best mate the past few years. Infact I got so close to her I remember a counsellor asking me how I dealt with my drinking issues… I told her I went for walks …

A letter to me…

Well this is going to be hard, I have a constant battle going on in my head so to talk to my present self is actually rather scary, I never know which me is going to come to the forefront! I am very much teetering on an edge too 😬 however I’ll try and give …

A letter to 17 year old me.

A blogger wrote a post about writing letters for ten days! I decided to take part so here’s my first one… a letter to 17 year old me, it’s quite stark but hopefully over the next ten days the letters will get warmer and funner 😆 so… here goes!! Here are the rules… Mar 22 …

Things to be proud of!

First off these bad boys!!! haven’t had the desire or confidence to attempt Yorkshire puddings for ages!! My grandma would be proud!! ❤️ Secondly I’m realising and accepting how far I have actually started to come. Thirdly.. I have a real desire to go back to work. I want to help people again especially now! …

Victories of the past week!

Decided to start keeping a positivity diary! I feel I focus too much on the negative, plus now I’m on my own again in terms of help.. I need to start pulling myself through so… This week I fought off my anxiety, attended my university interview and got offered a place the very same day. …

Invisible illness.

Seriously frustrated today. Because I function so well and for the most part I cope with my symptoms on my own, people seem to think I’m not ill. I had a mental health nurse this afternoon say to me “you are coping with a nursing course, and you haven’t hurt yourself for a few weeks …

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