I haven’t managed to write anything in such a long time! I’ve been too busy getting better and I’m happy to say I think my PTSD has crawled off into remission 😃😃 My EMDR has worked absolute miracles! When I first started it I would spend the whole day anxious as hell about it, I …
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Stiff upper lip or self sabotage?
Growing up British and in a household with two seriously ill brothers I was taught the stiff upper lip, it’s not that bad approach from a very early age. I learnt to suppress emotions and feelings very well and I grew up believing that I was quite a robust tough woman, if I ever felt …
Not all men….
I haven’t written anything on here for quite some time, I’ve been staying off social media and generally trying to come to terms with the stuff I deal with in EMDR and just generally trying to get on with life. But I feel I need to get this off my chest! So excuse me for …
Positives of the past month!
Today I managed to finish a book!! This is a big big deal! I have always adored reading, I love feeling like a teeny tiny speck in the midst of huge towering words and great big soft pages all floating around me, swallowing me up and making me literally live the book.. I like feeling …
Rusty key.
During my last two EMDR sessions the strangest things have started popping up! Like making up dance routines with my little brother when we were very young or me chewing all the feet of my barbies in a bid to reject the girlie girl persona my stepmother insistently tried to drive into me. I couldn’t …
A session full of firsts.
Last nights EMDR was full of firsts for me! The first time I wasn’t sick before/during the session. (I was afterwards but I suspect that was from eating too much). The first time I managed to verbalise stuff, usually I shake my head when he asks if I can tell him stuff, last night I …
Fresh hell.
It is currently 2.50 am and I have just fought my way out of my fourth NEW nightmare of the night!! I was warned things could get worse during the process of EMDR and last nights session was brutal but I felt I made huge progress… Fast forward to bedtime, I was exhausted after my …
Calm in the chaos
I recently started having EMDR, I had a previous awful experience so I was very anxious and skeptical but I had to give it one last shot because i knew that if it was done properly it could be extremely beneficial. I have become so tired of violent nightmares every single night, not managing to …
Biting the bullet.
The past few days I have found myself toying with the idea of giving EMDR another go. My therapist mentioned it, to help me get the bottom of why I keep skipping time. Straight away I said no, however after a chat with my girlfriend about it… I am mulling it over. I had an …
There I am!
This morning I freaked out over a spider.. like proper freaked, I screamed like a girl, threw something at it and ran away as fast as I could. This is the first time since my trauma! The first time I have had a normal fear response to something unrelated! I stopped being afraid of anything …
Delilah Blossom 